Living In Your Authentic Truth

Ok, anyone else out there have a crazy week energetically? Yes New Moon, Yes Halloween/ Samhain, Yes the coming of winter in the northern hemisphere, Yes the world is a hectic place to be.

This past week and a bit has had me deeply observing how I operate within the downturn of the cyclical nature of life. Two weeks ago I was riding off a high from having facilitated my container - The Alchemical Portal of Death: A Journey To Liberation at a women's retreat - Women and Wolves in Blackfalds, Alberta.

I delivered a powerful journey for 20 plus women to be able to open up and have a conversation about our painful collective colonial past, and how these structures show up in today's global societies. This deeply activated me further into my power. For years I've been learning and growing to lead me right to a moment in time exactly like the one I experienced facilitating for a beautiful group of women.

Being able to have the opportunity to share my medicine runs so much deeper than wanting spot light. It traverses ancestral wounding and generational curses that have been asking to be broken. The work that I seek to do and how I seek to do it casts a net much wider than my immediate circle of friends and community. I'm grateful to be here and to really start stepping into these kinds of spaces where I can share my medicine in various ways.

A couple weeks later and things have quieted back down, the rush and thrill of facilitating my container is over. And I can feel the vulnerability setting back in. The unknown, the "well, what's next?" While a part of me wants to feel like the wave never comes crashing down, I know that's not how energy works. Things have to naturally ebb and flow. What goes up must come down. I for one, am not great at pretending that I'm not deeply in touch with my emotional state of being. And what I think a huge part of my medicine is, is being able to help normalize expressing ourselves from a place of authenticity, without fear of "is this good or is this bad?", and "what will the others think?" We've suffocated our feelings for long enough.

Are there folks out there living in perpetual bliss and joy? Maybe. It can feel like the "spiritual community" attempts to perpetuate this as the end goal - feeling anything other than ecstatic and happy all the time = bad. There's a lot of learning to do in the downturn of the cycle. For me, my baseline is always Trust. I Trust that everything is flowing in Divine order, even if I find myself in waves of uncertainty. We don't know what we don't know. We're truly always doing our best with the tools and information we have in front of us and our capacity to utilize such tools and information.

The Great Unknown is something all of us are tasked with making a friend out of. My choice in relating to the seeding, still, dark and womb like rebirth energies of life is to create space to get quiet and sit with what is coming up for me. Yesterday I lit a candle, put a beautiful song on repeat, fired up my HEALY, and journaled for 45 mins. As a healer I get to proclaim that I too am working on myself, and I have nothing to hide when it comes to being vulnerably honest about the highs and lows life brings me. I don't care to deem my sharing as bad, negative, or potentially a "turn off" for my community/ potential clients.

I keep it all the way real. And that's how it's going to stay. So my prayer for the collective this week is that we declare the relationships to ourselves, to our friends, families, lovers, and communities demand that we show up in the fullness of our Truth. No hiding. No fear of rejection or abandonment. May we be planted in the Truth of this human experience and follow the inner knowing that whatever is deeply meant for us will always show up because we can and choose to stand and live in our authentic Truth. Wrapped in this declaration, no doubt we'll collectively evolve into the badasses we're destined to be.

And so it is, Ase.

In Truth and Love,

-Ashley